Sunday, January 11, 2015

BEFORE WAKING, For My Brother

--for my brother, Jose Luis

Moonlight caressed the bars of the prison cell. And, suspended, at a distance, was a music which was no music but merely the echo of the wind, the echo of a grievous loneliness, an echo that overflowed with cries of animals and earthly groans...; the iron bars, unyielding and unchanging, prevented him from enjoying the vital beauty of nature.
     His eyes, as ecstatic as those bars, looked at the moon projecting a soul so large it made the moon its prisoner.
     Outside of his cell, within his dungeon, his solitude wove together the sounds of distant steps on the marsh, over the tall walls that shut the sky out of the prison, while the soldier paced back and forth, scattering the rays of moonlight, the sharp edge of the bayonet rose over his shoulder in silhouette.
     Was it after midnight?  Perhaps not. For the night does not run its course for a prisoner, it prolongs itself like a shadow that slips ever farther from the light. The night never ends as the cold bars of the prison like iron hands strangle him: The night in his empty, lugubrious cell, has no end. Why would it come to an end if a day is but another long, long night? 
     --The night never ends....It will never end...--but the prisoner felt that caressing the bars, he caressed the moon. The night felt like a cold rail he didn't want to release.  He grasped onto the bars.
     --When night is over, they will arrive...--he told himself--. The day will never again begin for me. They'll arrive before dawn.  They'll murder me!  And for what? Yet, I know this. I also know that they will come for me.
     --They will come....they will come....they will come...--he said to himself as the echoes of each memorized word ricocheted within him. And when he no longer thought of the words, the sound of their echo pounded from their final syllables..., repeating them mechanically, with more and more power, like the heart appears to palpitate faster and faster when the breath is suspended and the air that was withheld at last is exhausted.
     --Well, why shouldn't they come?--the prisoner asked himself mutely before the moon--Let them come.
     --Let them come..., let them come..., let them come...., let them cooooomeeee!  Come onnnnnn! his conscience echoed each time stronger, until it voiced a long and screeching scream.  

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

POISON

Maria Luisa Bolbito waited desperately. Her cavernous dead eyes whose pupils glowed brilliantly incandescent from the light of the ocotero branches shone over the ranch. She looked anxiously toward the entry.

A MAN WHO CAN'T SLEEP

Let a person sleep... I repeat to them: only sleep can console me. Do you understand? So I'm not about to listen to them...The night pinches their tongues into talking.
     Loss of sleep is getting to me. I'm sick of the hallucinations. It's true..., the pain comes to mind.... Those pains the soul can't forget. On the other hand, in sleep I'm completely different. I go to the laughing sea, where all weeping ends. I simply silence them. I want to have a peaceful evening. Amid the blind serenity that restores us. No explanation is necessary. Everything makes sense. At the church where I went for my pain, it was clear to everyone. I hid it from no one. You saved me it's true but you all don't need to remind me of it. I have sufficiently expressed my appreciation.

SILENT SIGHT

"Who is it?," I asked. "A man" they said, "is looking for you." It seemed since no one comes to see me. But I said, "I'm coming." I opened my eyes, put on my clothes and went out to the hallway. The man had vanished. Not knowing what to do I clasped my hands around my chin and began calling him. "Hey, Mr. So-and-So Where'd you go?" Not even a bunch of chickens on the back patio digging for scratch in the flower bed answered me back. The silence frightened me, and my anguish caused me to search for him under the table, chairs and trees, in nooks and under rocks, too. Who would've believed it? The man had disappeared.
     

Monday, January 5, 2015

TIMELY VISITORS

He entered yawning a dream. In the obscurity of the open entryway, darkness reigned long before the night fell.  All vestiges of light disappeared leaving behind the only indent from which to the see the world through dream. But within it, in its chasm, there was not even an indentation but to look for the matches.

MISERY FOR HAPPINESS

--happiness is not meant for the sufferer, JMLV, "La Vida Rota"

pouty beautiful enraged sinews, soul,
said the young poet to the silence's howl,
its ever arboring returned echoes
make a sound as though harnessing fulcrums
torrents of avenues throb into forms
chasing them through their burrowing flower
nested in the groundswell, born to be thorn,
full stinging nettles fingernails crown
the blade turning spindle woven by dreams
is the smallest hour spent only to grow
and for no other reason life broken
without purpose is thrashed splintering bone,
mercy was not made for kindness of heart
and happiness lost on the miserable

THE CROSSES ON THE CRAG

The Crosses would never be a good place. Here, all have died...They wander without life...wandering...wandering... they wander in their sleep, dreaming the incessant dream of lost sleep... Even in the villages, their heads away from here, lost in the illusion of new lands...
     --They even lack faith. No seriously, they live gone... They fade into dreams....they rarely smile and only when alone..their eyelids wide open their eyes shut tight.
    --It's true they can't see...And besides that there's nothing in The Crosses